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Whale Tails and My Place in This World

“So the first time ever, I was disappointed by test scores.  Don’t get me wrong…the Loudest Class isn’t perfect.  Great test scores are not why I teach. This one hurt though.”

I found this today in my drafts from 2015.  I wonder what I was so hurt about.  And I wonder about that title.  I don’t even know what test we were doing or who was in my class. I don’t know about you but when I look back all of the years run together. I mean, I think sometimes that my son (with me last year in 5th) is in the same class as one of my old kids who is graduating next year.

I wish I could sit with myself as I typed this a few years ago and figure out why it was hurtful.  I would reach out….and slap me in the back of the head.

Look at me now, I forgot about that dumb score.  That’s not just because I am old. That kid who is graduating?  She wrote me a few months back! A real one with stamps and everything! She remembered that I was crazy and that we liked the same books.  She remembered that I came to school on a scooter when I had a broken foot and that I wouldn’t let her eat skittles because she’d be too hyper.  And she was crazy like me–she probably failed whatever test I was crying over.

Nothing mentioned about that test.

So relax.  Focus on what kids will remember. Don’t cry over spilled test scores.  And don’t give your writing weird titles.

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A teacher in between things but still with a lot to say.

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